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 At some point, I bought into the fiction that I was lazy. A slacker. There are many sources for this (parents, teachers, boyfriends, society, a pervasive protestant work ethic that tells me my main value as a human being lies in my education/job/productive output), but it all really culminates in the soul-destroying phrase I heard so often as a kid:'you're so bright, if you'd only apply yourself' -- when what they really meant was 'do the things we want you to do rather than the things that interest you, because there's little/no value in them, and you certainly can't monetize them' -- a perspective doomed to smother out any hint of brightness in another human being, if ever there was one.

This self-perception that I'm lazy remains one of the most enduring fictions I still believe about myself. I certainly spent most of November feeling this -- that I wasn't doing enough, that I was slacking off, letting myself down, wasting time, etc.


Because of NaNoWriMo, I tracked my activities for the month at a very granular level (which I don't normally do except in a very informal way), and I collated them at the end of the month. I realized something: I'm a fricken rock-star of productivity.

Here's what I did: 

Worked my normal job 40 hours/week
Wrote 33k words on Chiaroscuro
       37 hours spent writing by hand
       Roughly 37 hours spent transcribing/editing (didn't track this, but it's about a 1:1 ratio for writing/transcribing)
Did extensive developmental edits for a friend's novel (about 20 hours)
Went to dance classes (about 8 hours)
Dealt with birthday and holiday blues
Hosted a family member for a week

Only two of these activities were directly monetized (and one of those, the developmental edit, came largely because I edited the first novel on a volunteer basis -- just a friend helping out a friend). This has made only a tiny chip in my 'I am a lazy slacker' fiction, but even that is nice. For December, I'm planning to do a match for November, plus a bump-up of editing two short stories to get them out and doing the rounds, and of course writing my fanfic gift and various treats for Yuletide. Maybe I'll turn that chip into a crack.

I can do it! For I am not a slacker!

Date: 2012-12-06 04:24 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] akashiver.livejournal.com
Still scratching my head at the very idea of you being a slacker. Say wha...?

Date: 2012-12-06 10:58 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] swan-tower.livejournal.com
Yeah, I'm pretty much stuck on "wha...?"

1. [livejournal.com profile] teleidoplex posts scientific proof she is not a slacker
2. [livejournal.com profile] teleidoplex vows to do more in the future, to prove she is not a slacker
3. wha...?

I mean, for crying out loud. I only wrote 30K on my novel last month, and THAT'S MY JOB.

Date: 2012-12-07 08:40 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] anthimerian.livejournal.com
Damn! Fantastic job. Definitely not lazy.

(On a related note, I have no idea how y'all who handwrite do it. I can only type. It's a thing. I'm impressed.)

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